auto biography of an ordinary dyslexic

 

 

Autobiography of an ordinary dyslexic

As a child I loved school but I always seemed to struggle with writing, spelling and reading. However, I gained a love of books from my father. He used to read to me constantly from a very early age. My mum told me that when I was about 3 years old people would look at and watch me apparently reading out loud Noddy books word for word. But in reality I had listened to the stories so many times I had learned it word for word page by page.

At primary school I particularly enjoyed art, music, science and storytelling I don’t really remember having any problems with this. I do remember my hand writing and spelling never seemed any better at all. In those days there was no such thing as learning support but I had a fantastic teacher, Mrs Lyden, who was very patient with all in the class. So I don’t remember school ever being anything but a great place to be.

One day my mum had to keep me off school for the day because I had a hole in my trousers. I liked school so much that I sneaked out of the house and went off to school. That’s how much I enjoyed going to school lol.

When I was about eight years old I became interested in space, space exploration and in life on other planets. I dreamed of going into space a lot as a young kid. But I never got there like so many of us. I still remember watching in awe at the first moon landing. I was 11 years old and it had a real impact on me.

One night, about a week after watching the moon landing, I had a frightening nightmare.  A bright full moon was shining through my bedroom window. For some unknown reason something shot out from the moon smashed through my bedroom window and set my bedroom on fire. I remember struggling hard trying to climb out of bed but was paralysed and unable to move, scary stuff at the time.  Not sure if this is true for all dyslexics but I have a strong and vivid visual imagination.

My interest in space gave me an incentive to read science fiction, (sci-fi), books and space fiction books, in spite struggling with my reading. I just thought it was normal to lose your place a lot when reading, to reread texts over and over and having to sound out words. Authors like HG Wells, John Wyndham Arthur C Clark just caught my imagination and I soaked up books like a sponge from around age nine.

One of the benefits of being dyslexic is I can read the books I enjoy over and over and still find something new in the text. I still enjoy reading Wells and Wyndham today.

To my dad's consternation, I still loved to read Thomas the Tank Engine books which were books for a 6 or 7 year old as well as the sci-fi books. I loved the feel of the Thomas books, the artwork, the familiarity and they were easy to read. I must have worn those Thomas the Tank Engine books out at the local library. My father even tried to ban me from reading them but I couldn’t stop reading them.

It was the start of the falling apart or my relationship with my father. I did struggle at school no doubt, and the harder I worked the less progress I seemed to make and the less interested my dad became in my school work and in me. It seemed no matter how hard I tried, no matter how hard I worked my hand writing never got any better, my spelling didn't improve, I couldn’t do exam revision because information just wouldn’t stick. I guess my dad became disappointed in me. I know I was disappointed in myself.

My teachers were always telling me I was a bright kid in school reports but I just couldn’t show it in exams. No matter how hard I tried I couldn’t pass any written exam, I just couldn’t write legibly enough and get my thoughts down on paper clearly enough. In the end I just stopped attending school at the age of fourteen. Learning in school became boring and a chore and I just didn’t enjoy being there.

Oh I would attend art and music lessons, I enjoyed Religious Education, (RE) too. Not because I was a religious person though. Thinking back now in RE we did a lot of debating of issues and philosophy. You don’t have to worry about bad handwriting and poor spelling doing any of these activities. Not surprisingly though the only exam I passed was Art everything else was a spectacular failure. Not that I really know this as didn’t even open my exam results, the letter went straight into the bin.

My relationship had just totally broken down with my dad by then as well. We just couldn’t communicate at all. So I started hanging out with other kids on the streets in the local gang. I got involved in gang fights, football hooliganism and drinking for a while. It was difficult to escape it on the estate where I lived. There was an anger and frustration inside of me, I felt disappointed in myself because I failed at school and angry with my dad and with school. The gang gave me an outlet for that. In the end, like many male dyslexics I got into trouble with the law.  

However, I started getting more involved in music, can’t remember how but I became a disc jockey at the local youth club for a couple of years. Around this time I had a craze for buying vinyl albums. I would go to Wembley Market every Sunday to look for new albums to buy. I would just go by look and feel of the cover art; if I liked that I bought it and eventually ended up with thousands of vinyl albums. So maybe it must have been because of my record collection lol.

It was around this time I fell in love for the first time as well. Music and being in love were much more fun the going to football and fighting so my gang phase became just that......a phase.

Being dyslexic didn’t stop me from doing manual work though and I did a few manual jobs for a few years.  However, sooner or later some manager or other would tell me I was a smart kid great with customers and would promote me into an office job. Where, without fail, I would crash and burn spectacularly. The whole dyslexia thing with organisation, form filling and memory proved to be an impossible barrier to overcome at that time.

When I was about 21 I fell in with a new bunch of guys, we became friends started a band together. It was the start of my long association with music on a serious basis. I don’t know or why we all got on though. They were all well educated with university degrees and in great jobs, there was I working in a builder’s merchant’s yard loading big lorries, driving fork lift trucks and lugging bags of cement around.

One of the guys father was a school caretaker and he let us use the swimming pool heating room to jam it. We nicknamed it, “The Hole”, because it was located underground and it was like a sauna. It was a great place where we could all hang out, jam as loud as we liked and generally do what we wanted. We thought we were King Crimson but in reality we were King Craptastic.  This will give you little taster of how it was. We would jam out Deep Purple’s, “Smoke on the Water” for hour after hour. Not the whole song though just the intro over and over AND over.

I think we were just a bunch of anachronistic hippies we followed the summer music festival scene with the Peace Convoy for a few years. We played small gigs here and there at places like Stonehenge, Glastonbury and Vines Cross and just being very chilled out. I believe the music enabled me to re programme my dyslexic brain and develop better a memory and ability to concentrate amonst other things.

I could write a whole book about whole music period of my life, what I can remember of it that is. All I do know is I had a talent for music and playing bass guitar. I played and made friends with a lot of fantastic talented people and I just had fun.

In 1988 aged 30 or so I felt I needed a change and so went to college for one day a week. I had to start right from the beginning taking subjects such as maths, English and computing at a very basic level.

All the teachers were phenomenal, inspirational even. It was around this time I was introduced to computers and word processing software. Ok it wasn’t perfect; I still struggled with spelling and getting my ideas out, but for the first time could express myself on paper without worrying about my handwriting. Wooohoooo! to my own amazement I found I could learn and actually pass exams. I discovered something I thought I never would, a love of learning.

I met and made great friends with everyone on this course. We were a small group who had, for many different reasons, hadn’t done well at school. It was such a positive experience for me and it encouraged me to look for a full time course. Moreover, I passed every exam with flying colours achieving 98% in one English exam alone

The following year I was lucky enough to find funding that enabled me to take a full-time Access to Teaching course. Have to thank the Diocese of Southwark for this funding. Without it I would never have been able to take the course.

As part of the application process I had to go through an interview with the course teachers. There was a question about Shakespeare which flummoxed me for a minute as I had never read any of his work. So I started to talk about a sci fi book I was reading at the time and, to my amazement, was accepted on the course.

It was fantastic and included subjects such as English language and literature, maths, history, geography and psychology at “O” and “A” level.  I still struggled with exams but managed to pass because of my course work and so gained a place at university.

I met and made great friends with everyone on this course. We were a small group who had, for many different reasons, hadn’t done well at school. We would all help each other, come into college over the holidays and work together. It was such a positive learning and life experience for me.

It was while at university I discovered that I was dyslexic. It was like a light being switched on in a darkened room. It took a while to adjust and come to terms with but then off I went. I learned how to learn, I gained an understanding of why I failed at school. More to the point I discovered I had an academic potential.

 I studied for an Honours Degree in Geography I loved every minute of it. Whilst at university I did volunteer mentoring of kids with additional learning support needs at primary and secondary school with the East London Connection. It spurred me on to stay in education for another year and take a teaching qualification. It was a full times Post Graduate Certificate in Inclusive Education after finishing my degree.

In 1995 I began my teaching career working with young people with learning difficulties and disabilities and it was my passion.  I learned such a lot from the students I worked with. Teaching was so much fun and very challenging.

During this time I became involved in working with disaffected students. Many were bright individuals who had not achieved at school for a myriad of different reasons. Many didn’t have any qualifications that would enable them to take the course the courses they were interested in taking.  

As a result I designed an engineering course that concentrated on the doing, practical side engineering, taking an engine apart and reassembling it, wiring and building small electrical equipment and writing and recording music they had written themselves or music they listened too. By enabling students to do the practical it encouraged them to tackle their difficulties with reading and writing.

Of course over half the students on this course were later found to be dyslexic. As a result, and because of my own dyslexia, I began taking specialist dyslexia teacher training courses in 1997.  Eventually I became a specialist dyslexia teacher in 1998.

In 2000 I got new a new job as Co-ordinator for Dyslexia Support at a college, which I did for about 7 years. Whilst employed at the college I designed, developed and managed a new dyslexia project, “Breaking the Barriers of Dyslexia”,. It’s basic aim to provide access to free dyslexia screening and assessment for staff at the college. It was also designed to raise a more positive profile of dyslexia at the college.

At that time I was running open advice sessions for staff and I found many were concerned they may be dyslexic or were dyslexic but didn’t know what to do about it. Many felt if it were found out they were dyslexic it would adversely affect their teaching careers. I am very happy to be a dyslexic and believe dyslexia brings many positives such as great problem solving skills and ability to visualise the big picture of any issue etc.

I approached the Learning and Skills Council in London with a project proposal, “Breaking the Barriers of Dyslexia”, which they accepted and fully funded my project to the tune of fifty thousand pounds.

Our original target for the project was to provide free dyslexia assessments for eight members of staff. All the staff assessed were given training in dyslexia friendly work strategies and assistance in applying for Access to Work funding.

It was a very successful project, over 300 members of staff were screened and we provided dyslexia assessments to 23 staff including teachers.  However, at the end of project party the majority of staff assessed as being dyslexic still didn’t want managers to know they had been assessed. So it wasn’t a total success but it indicates how much of a hidden issue dyslexia can be.

I have a very positive outlook towards my dyslexia and one of the reasons I developed the project was enable others to see dyslexia in a positive way. But to so many of us being dyslexic is something to be ashamed of and something to be kept secret.

 I do not believe dyslexia is a disability, what does make it a disability to begin with is an education system that just does not meet our learning needs and enable us to access the learning that takes place in schools. It’s a society issue not and individual dyslexic one.

In 2007 I was made redundant from my post at the college. So I decided to move back to Scotland where I was born. My family had moved to London when I was still a baby and I had lived there all my life. It was just the right time for me to move back home.

It was time for a complete change and brought with it many new challenges for me. Unfortunately my employer kept all the assistive technology I had got through Access to Work. It was a big blow as I was reliant on the technology to help me with any reading and writing task. This basically disabled me as I was unable to complete application forms etc without access to computer. This is why I believe it is society that disables not being dyslexic.

 I began to seek work but found that dyslexia was way down the priority list within training organisations, businesses and even in local, regional and national government. I spoke with many dyslexic individuals who couldn’t find any support to enable them to overcome the barriers they faced because of their dyslexia. My own barrier was I couldn’t find access to any assistive technology anywhere in Job Centres, training providers and in other places there to assist people with gaining employment. .

However, I was lucky and successfully applied to a charity for funds that enabled me to buy a new lap top and assistive technology. My wife helped me a lot with this.

It was in response to this situation that I founded Dyslexia Pathways in 2008.  To begin with I used my own money to set up my company. We became incorporated as a social enterprise in 2009. I didn’t want Dyslexia Pathways to be a charity but I still wanted it to have social aims. As a result I set up Dyslexia Pathways as a Community Interest Company social enterprise. I am a great believer in the social model of disability and that was why Dyslexia Pathways became a social enterprise.

In 2009 I won two social entrepreneur awards from First Port and Scotland Unltd. This provided me with funding which enabled to set up the Dyslexia Pathways web site and win new business. Setting up the business was the hardest thing I had ever done in my life. Activities such writing a three year business plan, information leaflets, web mastering and financial projections just took such a long time to get right. It required developing a whole new skill set from leadership skills to marketing.

I have to thank my wife for her support with this though. She kept me focussed, worked on the financial sections of the business plan etc. I would never have got there without her support.

Since becoming a social enterprise Dyslexia Pathways has won contracts to supply dyslexia support services to two universities here in Scotland.  We have provided dyslexia support services to over 250 students and had over 500 requests for advice and guidance on dyslexia issues through out free phone and internet site.

At this time we currently have well over 450 members in our Facebook Cause. We are still a small organisation; but I want to take it further and do new things. For example I have designs for a new phone app and games and working to set up new mentoring scheme for dyslexic kids in school.

Dyslexia Pathways does some voluntary work for the Scottish government on a couple of parliamentary groups such as The Goodison Group and Preventative Spend Committee. There we try to raise a more positive profile of dyslexia whenever an opportunity arises.

In March 2020 we set up the Unique Dyslexic Eye show producing podcasts and radio shows. This was our response to COVID. All my dyslexia work ceased so I had no income. As a result I set up a small successful Kickstarter to rise funding for the show. Our target was £750 and we raised £790 in a month.

This year 2021 Dyslexia Pathways CIC won a Prestige Award for the best dyslexia support organisation in Scotland.

We are all born with an innate desire and need to learn. When we send our dyslexic kids to school, they, like non - dyslexic kids want to learn, to read, to write and do all the other learning activities at school. However, because so many of our dyslexic kids either go un-assessed as being dyslexic or are known to be dyslexic but get little to no support they fail. Not because they are dyslexic but because they are not taught in ways they can access to learning effectively or with learning materials they can use. It is this that disables not dyslexia. Many dyslexics struggle in a non dyslexic world and it makes me wonder how non dyslexics would fare in a dyslexic world? It is this that turns so many dyslexic kids off of learning as it did to me.

The irony of this is that what is good teaching practise for dyslexic learners is good for all learners. Yet many dyslexic kids, like I did 40 years ago, still learn they are failures from an early age in school. This can impact on their self esteem and self confidence etc. It can lead to bullying, name calling etc. It can even affect relationships with parents and their future life opportunities.

For many dyslexics being dyslexic can seems like life sentence. Being dyslexic can put so many barriers in front of them from school, into everyday life, to training for work and in employment. These are not insurmountable barriers; it just takes a little support from a school or an employer to enable a dyslexic to overcome them.

Every dyslexic child who leaves school without any support for their dyslexia as school can blight that child for the rest of their lives. Many dyslexic boys end up in trouble with the police and end up in prison. Yet 20% to 35% of entrepreneurs are dyslexic. It’s a waste of the individual dyslexic’s potential and potential contribution to the economy.

I am hoping Dyslexia Pathways can become a positive force in changing this current status quo for many dyslexics.

Please feel free to visit my organisation’s web site:

http://www.dyslexiapathways.co.uk/index.php

We offer a number of dyslexia focussed services as well as operate a free advice and guidance line.

 

SATS testing of primary school kids

There was a little slot on the Wright Stuff, a television programme on Channel 5, about SATS and testing of primary school. It's a subject that often comes up when I am working with over 16 years of age dyslexics. So I rang the programme up and was lucky enough to be the first person to be selected to have my say on air.

Before I became an inclusion and dyslexia specialist I wanted to become a primary school teacher. Whilst I was at university I became a volunteer with the East London Connection. I basically went into primary schools mentor and support struggling kids. It was such a positive experience I decided to become a primary school teacher.

So after I past my 4 year Hons degree I decided to take a one year full time teacher training course in inclusive education.  I totally loved the course and the teachers and all the others on the course.

As part of the course you have to go into a couple of school for work experience and to put what you have learned on the course into practise.

On the second work experience I was told to sit with a six year old girl when she was doing her SATS test. The girl was sat in a room by herself and I could see just from looking at her she was in distress even before the test was taken. As soon as she started the test even I could see, as a trainee teacher, that she was going to really struggle with this. For example she was mirror writing, she was really struggling with her spelling and writing and everything just took her a long time to do.

By the end of about half an hour the child was in deep distress and I just wanted to cry myself. It put me off of primary school teaching as a career completely.

Now as an inclusion and dyslexia specialist I would have been better prepared to work with this child. But back then, as a trainee novice teacher, I was put into a situation I was totally unprepared for. It was after this experience I decided I didn't want to be a primary school teacher.

Today I work with dyslexic young people and adults and for many school was a nightmare. All the testing did for many was to prove to them as kids that they were stupid and educational failures. I, like many other dyslexia specialist are left to pick up the pieces.  
For me there has to be a better way to find out how well kids are doing at school.

School should be a fun place to be. It should be about encouraging kids to learn. About enabling and supporting kids to achieve according to their abilities. The main focus of any school should be on the children and about doing the best for them. 

I think I read somewhere that primary school kids are tested 14 times between the ages of  6 and 11. School has become a place where teachers are forced to drill kids for tests so a school can get a high place on a league table.

Were you aware that kids are now cheating to pass these tests. Over 40% of kids have sleepless night worrying about these tests. Nobody knows how many dyslexic kids are failing at these tests and at school because they have not been assessed as being dyslexic and are not receiving any support for their dyslexia.

They used to say school days were the best of your life......Today, for many to many kids they are not.

Beautiful morning sun through my window

Well I am struggling with learning this Word Press software................Wish there were a place where I could try things out before I actually made changes to my Dyslexia Pathways or Unique Dyslexic website......... I will have a look around the web and on you tube to see if I can find any learning materials there later this week.

I have contacted Digital Fife to see if I can access some support or training in Word Press.

I had very fruitful meeting with Judith Alison form Youth 1st based here in Glenrothes.  They do a lot of great work with young people across Fife. Here is a link to their site:

http://www.youth1st.co.uk/

I was going to join their network but it costs £90 and for a small organisation that's a lot of cash to find. So that will have to wait a couple of months.  Far to many out goings as it is over the next month or show.

I have decided to allocate £100 to pay for the new logo designs for t shirts. But I still have not made a decision on which artist / graphic designer to hire. I got over 60 responses to my request on the Pay Per Hour website. I am not usually so indecisive but it has to look right and feel right.......Not easy to communicate the visual pictures I have in my head in writing.

Finally! after 3 months trying to set up a dual signatory bank account I have received confirmation from the Unity Trust Back that one has been set up. Have to say they have been very helpful. It took less than 10 days to get accepted. So kudos to Unity Trust Bank.

Setting up a bank account is not exactly a very dyslexia friendly exercise though. All the forms have little boxes to be filled in making it impossible for me to fill in by hand. There are no accessibility options if you want to fill the form in online. Then there is all the small print to read which is always in very small writing and there are pages and pages of it. Plus you have to be a solicitor to decode what it says lol.

I went to a Bank of Scotland branch to find out about moving my Dyslexia Pathways co-operative business account a few weeks ago. I just wanted to chat with someone face to face. But they no longer do that at Bank of Scotland and I was advised to go fill in the form online. Wow about as helpful as a chocolate watch in a sauna.

I originally went to the Co-operative bank about setting up a duel signatory account specifically for projects and funding we win I have had my business account with the Co-operative bank since 2009 but my request was refused. It took me ages to complete the forms and find all the paper work they wanted.

Its not as if I wanted an account with any credit as the purpose of the account was for any grant funding won for our projects.

At Dyslexia Pathways we always pay our bills on time, we have no debt and we have no overdraft nor gone overdrawn on our account.

It put back our Awards for All lottery funding bid 3 months. Still the lottery funding bid has been sent off now and we will here something in about 6 weeks

Once I get used to the Unity Trust bank I will be moving the Dyslexia Pathways Co-operative to Unity Trust Bank.

We should be receiving the funding won from Foundation Scotland this week....... wow new toys to play with. They will help us a lot with the work of Dyslexia Pathways and with the Unique Dyslexic project.

I have a very busy couple of weeks ahead. We sold our flat in Glenrothes and are buying a new house. I shall miss the views we have from our windows in the flat.

Like today for example, watching the sun rise over the Firth of Fourth was simply breath taking. From our front room window we can see way over the Fourth from Glenrothes.

Things I will not miss will be the lifts sigh the bane of my life. Not that they breakdown a lot but I seem to spend half of my life waiting for them.

The new house looks great and comes with a front and back garden. I have not lived in a house in nearly 30 years. It also a very quiet area with hardly any traffic noise at all.

Ahhhh its that time of year to renew my car insurance and car tax........... that's another £300 of expense to pay for.

move to new website software

A couple of days ago I went along to With People for some training in how to  use Word Press website software. Phew talk about a whirlwind tour......It was very helpful though. I think my dyslexic brain picked up around 10% of what I was shown lol.

Now I have to start to feel my own way around the Dyslexia Pathways and Unique Dyslexic websites and populated and edit them. It all looked easy enough when they showed me what to do and they were holding my hand. Actually sitting here doing on my own is a different story.

So far have made a couple of changes and done a little editing but I think I am going to have to buy a Word Press for pre dummy dummies lol.  Only took me 4 hours to do that.

Still we will get there eventually......I HOPE!

realising ideas not as easy as it sounds

Have been putting together some rough ideas for new t shirt logo designs this morning. I am now looking for a graphic artist to help turn my ideas into a reality...........

I went to a people per hour website where there are several thousand artists from all over the world selling their talents. I thought it would solve my problem. I have the ideas but not the artistic skills to realise them. Lots of very talented people from all over the world on that site selling their talents and skills and low cost.

With the Unique Dyslexic logo I had the idea for this in my playing about in my head for ages. I could see it in my minds eye. I did make quite a few rough sketches but didn't have the artistic training and skills to make the idea look professional. Luckily I gave my ideas to the Unique Dyslexic website designer and he had a good go at realising my idea.

Gawd, I thought the people per hour website would solve my problem but I got over 50 responses to my advert on the site and still more are coming through.

Also trying to write out the ideas you have in your mind is so much harder to do than talking about them face to face. Sigh think I will have to make a decision later today on who to hire.

Changes

There are very few certain things in life, I think there is an old saying that mentions birth, death and taxes. But there is one more certain thing in life and that's things never stay the same. Some of these things we have little or no influence over, some we have and some are both of these things.
 
Being dyslexic is one thing we cannot change because many dyslexics are born dyslexic and for me personally, today, I am very happy that I was born dyslexic. Of course it was not always so. When I was at school, oh we are talking 1963, when I started primary school there was no such thing as dyslexia. I don't even remember if there was anything like one to one learning support back then anyway.
 
Like many dyslexic kids I did struggle with some parts of my learning. My spelling and handwriting in particular I struggled with. Oh I did struggle with reading but I was lucky as my dad read to me from an early age and I gained a love of reading even though I was not exactly the quickest of reader. It got so bad with my handwriting that I just wouldn't write in front of anyone and was embarrassed every time I handed it work to my teachers. I had to write slouched over the page and cover what I was doing with my right arm lol. I couldn't chance or influence that and neither could my teachers. 
 
I continued to struggle with my spelling, writing and reading all through my school life and eventually I got so sick of it I just stopped attending school when I was about 14. I still went to art and music classes, I enjoyed religious education, not because I am religious in any way, it was because we talked a lot about world issues, we debated and best of all it didn't involve much writing.

I would show up at school for art and music because I could express myself through both mediums. I had a love of reading by then because it sparked my imagination and that encouraged me to write stuff, poems, songs and short stories.
 
However, left school thinking I couldn't learn and was not very bright the inevitable happened and I left school with very few qualifications. Well I say that but I don't know because when my results came I just threw away the letter. I just thought I was not a good learner and just not very bright.

I don't remember anything about my self esteem or confidence levels but I certainly remember being an angry, frustrated teenager.

It was not until I was about 35 year old that I decided to go back to school and I found I had a love of learning. Oh I still struggled but I had some great teachers and we dyslexics, if we are anything at all, are determined individuals. 

It was when I was in my second year of university I discovered I was dyslexic and this discovery changed everything for me. It was the start of a journey which enabled me to work with my dyslexic strengths, to understand myself as a dyslexic and place my struggles at school and with my dad into context.

But the biggest positive that came for being assessed was access to Disabled Students Allowance. It was a eureka moment as they say, I finally started to understand why I had not succeeded in school and why I had struggled. Once I began to understand this I found I could take control over my dyslexia instead of my dyslexia having control over me.  

This enabled me to buy a computer and software and overnight my hand writing issue was no longer an issue. I found I could type as fast as everyone else. I was a dyslexic learner unchained lol.

Finding out I was dyslexic enabled me to overcome many barriers placed in front of me by society and many of the self imposed barriers I had placed in front of myself. 

After passing my honours degree I went on to do a PGCE in Inclusive education. It was during this time I made it my mission to find out as much as I could about dyslexia. I was able to start working to my dyslexic strengths, to start overcoming barriers placed in front me by society and by myself.  
 
 Many medical and even dyslexia specialists experts, so called, would have us believe that being dyslexic makes us disabled, that we have a malfunctioning brain that we are different from the norm. Whatever norm might be. This discrepancy or medical model of dyslexia is something that needs to change. This is a model that fails dyslexics miserably in my view because it has so many negative connotations attached to it.

Dyslexia was only a disability in my case because I had no understanding about my dyslexia, because I didn't have access to the tools that would enable me to learn. In my case it was the keyboard and computer that unchained me from my own negative perceptions of myself as a learner. 

Today our schools still fail far to many dyslexic kids, we are not taught in ways that enable us to access the learning that takes place in the classroom. Or access to the tools that enable us to read, write and learn effectively. Because of this still to many dyslexic kids leave school with little or no qualifications. 
 
 In my career as an inclusion and dyslexia specialist, gawd I hate that word specialist, I have come to the conclusion that dyslexia is not a disability. It is a neurological difference which has many positive attached to it. Dyslexics are big picture thinkers, we have strong empathy, we are determined, creative, great emotional intelligence. We are so many positive things yet we still have to live with a discrepancy model of dyslexia. A model that disables rather than enables.

Ok here is something to think about lol its a bit way out there and there is no way to prove it one way or another. Prehistoric humans were hunter gatherers. We know they were hunters because in many caves there a paintings of men hunting animals for food. We see this as prehistoric art and that's all it is.

But to hunt as a group successfully you have to have a plan, a strategy, a means to coordinated the hunt as well as pass this information on to future generations. Maybe this cave art is the work of early, big picture thinking, problem solving dyslexic prehistoric people planning a hunt or passing on knowledge to future generations etc.

Being dyslexic in a society that uses art in such a way would make being dyslexic in that society a big positive and so the dyslexic gene got passed on and still remains with us today.

Ok so it might be a little bit X Files but who knows?

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Dyslexia Pathways has just won a funding award for our new Unique Dyslexic Project. We got an award for just over £1,600 from Foundation Scotland. The award is going to be used to purchase some new equipment which is going to be used on the Unique Dyslexic Project and also enable us to deliver or Being Positive about Dyslexia awareness training package. Many thanks to Foundation Scotland for this award.

Now I am going to see if I can find some funding to pay for the creative master classes for the Unique Dyslexic project here in Fife. I am hoping to run three in different areas of Fife. Each session will run for 3 hours and the idea is to get creative dyslexics together and exploring their creativity and developing a peer support groups. I will also be providing some free computer based dyslexia screenings as well.

They can also explore and find our more about the positive aspects of being dyslexic and enhance their self esteem, self confidence and resilience.

I received some great news from a student I was giving dyslexia support to this year. She had passed her Honours Degree course and will be going on to a Master Degree next year. When I first met this student her confidence and self esteem were not in a good place. She was struggling with finding and keeping a focus on her work and with self management. Have to say she worked very hard to overcome these issues and I am very pleased she achieved her goals. Much of the time I worked with her went into mentoring and counselling. Always great to get good news like this.

I have been looking into setting up a new bank account for Dyslexia Pathways. Its an account for funding awards and has duel signatories because of this. Have to say I have found this very difficult to do. So many forms, so much information and all having to be written by hand, all very dyslexia unfriendly lol. Especially the hand writing thing sigh. I have a Master degree but if you looked at my handwriting you would think I was 9 years old. I can only write in upper case single letters one at a time. Very time consuming and frustrating and tiring. Still its nearly done and will be ready to send off by Monday. Have to give a big thanks to my wife who has been a great help with this.