Going back to my secondary school
days I can remember that I would look at others in my class writing neatly in
joined up writing using their fountain pens. They left no trail of ink or blots
as their hand glided over the page with all the ease of a professional skater
on the ice. Their writing flowed easily across the page like water flowing down
river. Sentences and paragraphs all neat and tidy, spelling all correct
miraculously appeared. I couldn't get it together at all.
The fountain pen felt
uncomfortable in my left hand, my writing didn't flow it stuttered, I had to
drag it across the page. Whilst not quite as actually prickly as the pen in the
picture it metaphorically might as well have been. No sooner did I put pen to
paper there would be a mess of ink trailing behind my left hand. My hand would
be covered in ink as I tried hard to engage in the act of writing on a piece of
paper. As for the writing itself sheesh it was a total mess.
Then there was my spelling to contend
with. It was like trying to drive down a road full of lollypop ladies. It
seemed like every third word I would have to stop and contemplate how to spell
something. Every five yards I drove down this road one of lolly pop lady step out and stop me then another one
would step out and stop me as soon as the other had gone. I couldn't get any flow at all.
Needless to say it took me ages to write anything and every time I
handed in work a teacher would comment on my messy work. If I was lucky they
wouldn't do it in front of the rest of the class. For those of you who may not
know what a lollypop lady is they are people who stop traffic to let school
children cross the road in safety.
By the time I was 14 years old I have
had enough of school, well the learning part of it anyway. So I stopped
attending. Not altogether though I would go to art and music but for me the
rest of school was irrelevant. It was a lot easier to skip school back then
than it is now. I had lots of inventive ways of skipping school.
Years later in my first year at
university I got feedback from a lecturer for a 2000 assignment I completed. I
had spent many hours handwriting this assignment. Gawd only knows how many
pieces of paper were screwed up and thrown in the bin before I had completed
it. Every word was written in upper case because that’s the only way I can
write legibly. I checked every word for spelling errors many times. It was like
painting the Sistine Chapel for me. The first comment the lecturer wrote, in the dreaded red ink I might add, was,” doesn’t writing like this take a long time? How can you ever expect to pass any exam writing like this?” His comment took the gloss off the fact I got an A- for the assignment.
I moved to a different university for my second year and it was here I was assessed as being dyslexic. It was then I was given access to disabled students allowance to buy a computer and assistive technology. It was then I started my journey of discovery of my dyslexia. More importantly I didn’t have to do any writing by hand. I was finally liberated from that pen of thorns.
I read ur blog and its like a mirror image of my own experience. I experience other people judgments and find it very difficult to shake off their negativity. I also get very tired trying to write and spell correctly. I have researched Dyslexia extensively and find the subject complexed. I have thought of becoming a specialist in this field. Can you point me in the right direction. Cathryn
ReplyDeleteHi Cathryn its difficult to tell you where to start without knowing a little more about yourself. You could start off by looking for any local dyslexia organisations where you live. You might be lucky and find some courses through any of the organisations you contact. I have found that the more I write the better I get at it. I still struggle with spelling and trying to proof my own work takes an age. But never believe anyone who tells you being dyslexic means you cannot read or write properly or any of the negative stuff floating around the dyslexia sphere for that matter as most of it is a load of tosh.
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